10 December 2013

The Story of Us

And you doing the best to avoid me!

Ok! I feel so strange today
But Thank you very much for avoiding me
I started to think one day
Telling the story of us
How I'm loosing my mind
When I saw you here

But I held my pride
Like I should have held me

Scare to see the ending
Why are we pretending
It's meaningful

Just keep it right!
Keep it tight!

Try to see possibility
Create a magic things

What???? Magic?
Will you apply Captain's methaphysic???
And so many strength world will arise
Liberalism? Freedom of things?
Freedom of Right?
C-Carbon chain?


It's not scientific, Right?!
Go go go!!!

Huwaaaaaaa!!
Ohooooow!!!

I don't know what I say.

-End-

07 November 2013

This House Would Ban Me

Background
The Honorable adjudicator and the member of this house. Let me present you my case. This little senior high school girl is crying. Just write anything in her mind. and try to solve this problem which is only unfairness and inconsistency.

A couple of chromosome consisted by consisted by eight stranded histone. Each histone is tighted by one-half or two-third DNA. one histone octamer and another histones linked by non-histone protein. it happens to make one histoe and another not clashing each other. Each ten base couple will form a strand. It packed strongly, and saved in the most little organel at cell called nucleus. Very hidden. it's so hard for another else to be seen.

Mechanism
I'm sorry for loving you. Actually, I want  to be your secret admirer. You that have amazed me since the very first time I know your phone number. Since the very first time I meet you. I just proud of everything in you. But you ban me. thank you for trying to keep my heart well. I know it's impossible for us to be one, Now. Even if you love me, too. But I know it's impossible for you to approach me. Moreover, you let me spying your social network.

Justification
Well!! that's way I described chromosome structure since the very first time. Our relationship is as if this DNA. If our loved is histone, if we love each other. if there's love between us. it not must be linked by equal love, right. As thought histone that connected each other by non-histone protein.

We cant do anything. We cannot move from the status quo right now. it's not the right time. We just can solve this problem by move on the better condition inside our heart healthness. We just only hope to our Majesty God.....

As if a mole of DNA that wait to be replicated, transcripted, and translated
^^

02 November 2013

Great Adjudicator

That day was one of the most important day in my life. I just came from GMDT.. (Gajah Mada Debate Tournement). Ok!! I'm still trainee adjudicator. I don't know at all about  adjudicating and I get so many knowlegde regarding adjudicating. It's really qualified competitipn with qualified judges.

I start to realize my judging skill. and I will improve it more!!! If british comapany produce a nice film called "The Great Debater". My private film would be "The Great Adjudicator"

As one of my friend had told to me in the text.... Life as if a book.
Front page is identitiy, when you was born
Last page, is the end of your life...
Every single page is the day where you through
when you wrote something in a page
and you move on to another page
You are always see the new one..
The blank one...
the white one...
which waiting for your next written..

07 July 2013

Ms Iziii --> High School Beloved English Teacher

Sunday, January, 17th 2010 
THANK'S TO ALLAH SWT ... ... 

Dear diary .... 
Mother scolded me last night because of my late 
so,Exactly 04.30 am I woke up and prayed Shubuh.
After that,I helped the mother in the kitchen, 
accompanied by protests  cause I was not  getting up early on the holidays,
and when school days I wake up late. 
That's enough from mother's college that morning ... ..
I was swept the floor, cleaned up my bed room,very long time so,I heard the bomb outrage from the mother. 
After that I rushed showered,breakfast etc. 
Exactly at 08.00 a.m. I've dressed up the full d breakfast. 
I also give a lift off HANA mmediately by my bike to the junction Penican, 
really,cute girl who has a dimple in her cheek was so heavy ride on bicycle
Until at conjunction
We immediately got public transport,
we finally dropped at the Purbalingga old market junction 
and rushed went to school by pedicab to joint a MEGAMEN meeting 
MEGAS is extrakulikuler Ganesha wall magazine. 
That time, the meeting discussed the preparation for 3 MADING COMPETITION. 
Mis.Nin-nin said that yesterday's we get 100 of chips beautiful 3 cards 
we must be distributed it to GANESHA SMANZA students ,t
he price of it was Rp 3000; 00 per chip, 
and Rp.5000; 00 per two chips and for 
3 user of GANESHA SMANZA was required to support GANESHA on
3 MADING COMPETITION by type 
3MADING 35
then send to 1313. 
price Rp.100; 00 per SMS
,,,, SO,LET'S GANESHA FRIENDS FRIENDS SUPPORT US AS MANY AS POSSIBLE!!!!!!!! 
At 12:00 it was over,then we went to IDEA 1 WARNET and we was download Seon Deok soundtrack for 3 hours. But, unfortunately Downlaod results are not stored in FLASH DISK but it remains illegal in IDEA 's computer. 
At 15:00, I got home and I rest a while,then accompanied by the rain and hurricanes I was ironed my clothes while listeningmy mom mad at me causes I went home too more late.
After ironed I showered,imperceptibly arrived adzan maghrib,After maghrib prayer I was ate,, isa prayerd and to bed promptly at 08.05 am 
But,despite that shit I was really grateful to ALLAH SWT .ALLAH SWT Still allow me to paint a colorful sheet of this event. 
And today, I still have breath to give a heart felt speech 
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY Mrs. Izzy ". 
I sleep so soundly because I very tired 
Consequently, the next morning I was late again. ^ _ ^ 
however I remain grateful to ALLAH SWT.ALLAH SWT still gave us a long life

Just Kriik Kriik

Sudenly i think where i remember where we met where you say love to me where i must reject you where i know how meaningful you are after distance divorce us
after time erase me in your life..still you remember me?will you come back to me..i am waiting for you 
i wish 
hoping you 
i don't want 
my hearth for other except you ..
and i expect we could see you again may be if destiny make us see you again now if the time come i could receive you i will not reject you who make me meaningful coz i'm not meliana VIIIA student again however i've made Mrs.Meliana lovely english teacher
will it all happen..will its all occure to you and me...
May be...may be create hope which make me to always standing wait every happiness come to me yeah may be i love you so much..
But,
In Fact....
I am biologist
So, I am not loving you again :D

Shadow

Then I'm shattered by a shadow.. 
When matshadow sang 
"dear God the only thing I ask" 
Suddenly I hear aerosmith yelled 
"I could stay awake just to hear you breathing" 
but taylor-swift rebut 
"I'm not the princess its ain't a fairy tale" 
so I confused and sang 
"twinkle twinkle little star" 
then I saw the ant who walk in the wall laughed and ask me 
"is it funny?" 
no one understand what I write, 
what is my mind.. 
But I know in his heart 
there is the another heart. 
Sorry, I loved him. 
He showed me the magical love.. 
He have made me not only meaningful 
but also he have made me so very very miracle.. 
Taylor-swift I want to joint you back to december..
Tough I know, nowadays he never give his time for me.. 
humh.. It's impossible to know his formerly.. 
It's foolish.. 
Cant believe that I'm the fool again.. 
I tough this love was never end. 
But close close it all..
I hope God give me the best! 
I will always love him.. 
Who is he? Oh my God I forget his name =.=a

My Eyes and My Heart

I fall a sleep 
I wanna close my eyes 
without you in my dream 
I wanna take air
without you in my breath 
I wanna remove every memories 
between I and you 
because today.. 
I never in your mind 
Today 
you cant believe in me 
though 
you always come to my dream every

Look

Look! You can look that! Look! Once again! 
Look that carefully! 
Know! Understand that! 
Explore that well.. 
Look your strength.. 
Look your future.. 
Take step plus one by one.. 
Everytime 
Until you reach your happines! 
Your forever happines 
Focus! 
Just focus! 
Damn, damn, damn! 
Everything which disturb you.. 
Focus.. 
Look a spot.. 
Look a gold 
look a radiance.. 
And focus 
Always focus.. 
Throw the unreal love! 
Focus 
focus 
focus 
look 
and 
focus 
it is important for you.. 
Very very important 
more than important! 
LOVE? Aaaaaargh

whether your 'side' or mine??

I try to open.. 
I try to wait.. 
I go back the past time.. 
I've gone with the wind.. 
Flow with them.. 
But I just waiting for a long long time 
I try to put it back into it place 
but absolutely 
it have been strong here 
and I don't wanna force it 
It's the nice story when I was ten grade foolish girl, but today I cant avoid my tears when I remember it.. 
This is looking like a contest.. 
But the bottom of my heart say better you're on my side 
'tough it's impossible.. You've found someone the best for you and it isn't me 
Oke! I don't wanna force it! Sorry! I don't wanna get it! 
I just the naive girl 
I just the full of mission girl 
I just a fanatic and idealism girl 
but I don't wanna cant stand without it 
I must find wings 
focus in my learn 
until now, 
I ready to fly 
don't worry to say fortunately.. 
Don't worry with me 
I let you far away 
and 
I let you held your wish.. 
Your happines.. 
Without me in your side

Ayu, Meli and His Favorite book

Suddenly, I remember me and ayu, in Speaking class... was doing our onversation

  “Treet!!!Treet!!!” The bell rang at Senior High School 1 Purbalingga. (Meli looked so confused. She was searching Ayu). Eventually...(she found her  friendship in the library).
Meli     : “Ayu!! Don’t you know?! I look for you in this large school.”
Ayu     : “Hahaha what’s happening,Mel?”
 Meli    : “Do you remember today?”
Ayu     : “Friday”
Meli     : “how about month?”
Ayu     : “October”
Meli     : “And date?”
Ayu     : “23th”
Meli     : “Then....”
 Ayu    : ”Then you’ll ask this year?  This year is the year before next year! Isn’t it?!”
Meli     : “Aaaaargh!!! I hate your cold!”
Ayu     : “Hehehe sorry. I’m doing chemistry task. What’s happening, mel? Don’t ask me about chemistry task!! I scare it!”
Meli     : “No no no!! I also really hate chemistry!!! Close your book and listen to me carefully!!”
Ayu     : ”Yeah!!”
Meli     : “Do you know tomorrow?”
Ayu     : “Hmm!!! Don’t “ask it again. It’s absolutely and definitely not import for us. I dislike it!
Meli     : “Ifdza...”
Ayu     : “What?? Pardon me! That’s his birthday. What’s our gift?”
Meli     : “I search you here to discus about it!!”
Ayu     : ”Mm..He is really crazy in reading”
Meli     : “So, we must give him the impressing book. What kind of book?”
Ayu     : ”Sure!! It’s Love verses my favorite novel.”
Meli     : “Horrible!!! It’s not suitable for a playboy like that!”
Ayu     : ”However, do you have the other Idea?”
Meli     : “My beloved novel the rainbow troops!!”
Ayu     : ”Ooh.. It’s too expensive!”
Meli     : “Mmm.. wait up!! It’s ifdza’s birthday. Sure!! It’s his birthday. Why we have to give him our favorite book?? ”
Ayu     : ”Oh yes.. I know! Basically, we must give him his favorite book. But what is it??”
Meli     : “What is his favorite lesson?”
Ayu     : ”All off people in this nice world know that he loves chemistry!”
Meli     : “So??”
Ayu     : ”We buy a great chemistry book for him.”
Meli     : “Now, I’m in line with you” (They toss)
            “Treeeeet!! Treeeeet!! Treeeeet!!” The bell rang...
Meli     : “Hei look!! That’s our beloved teacher!”
Ayu     : ”Mr. Luck!”
Meli     : “He opens our class door.”
Ayu     : ”let’s go!!”
            They enter the class...

Hopeless

I don't know why.. 
Tears drop in my face when I realize it.. 
When I try to remember.. 
What's the meaning of love in your eyes.. 
What's the meaning of your love for me.. 
When I start to lie my pen 
because it was fallen me to the deep valley.. 
The deepest my feel to you.. 
I just a little.. 
I'm senseless.. 
And meaningless.. 
Cause I just come to your heart 
and make you hurt.. 
I cant stop say 
forgive me at all 
I cant hope 
your feel 
your love.. 
Cause I'm not your best 
'tough I feel you're my best, now

Yesterday was You, Today is Tou, Tomorrow and forever will be You

"Hurt". Just that way 
when my heart ask whether me in your mind or not
when you remember it? 
But, I want to say.. 
Please smile when you remember me.. 
Coz that's when I miss you very much.. 
And let cry when you miss me 
because there's no my self in your side 
O M G 
remove him today.. 
Because I don't wanna get my heart
to carve a hurt in our heart 
and in their heart 
because it comes in the wrong place and time. 
I know You love me more than everything..

Smal Note

Just the little note 
I feel so comfort when I close you 
It comes naturally 
I know I pleased 
and I aware.. 
I right aware.. 
It happens when you're my brother 
just my brother and not more.. 
Be my forever brother 
^_^

The Deeper One

I hope you will be better without me in your side
I hope I can carve day by day without you
I hope I have a strength to look at you with her
I hope I understand
I know I let you down
I'm never gonna make that mistake again
But I know
It's impossible for you
to give your nine again
I will try to follow my line and
never see yours
thanks for God
that have given me
the most important people in my life
you
 :')

make a wish

Make a wish is my favorite song when I was child. Do u remember? Well!! it was sung by Vic Zou. One of chinese artist and singer. I liked him so much and his song very much. It made me create my dream and my own wish. Well!! I make a wish. Just a little wish. I wanna be Mrs. Fruti.

I don't know what I say. I don't know what I want. I try to figure it out. I try to walked along my path destiny. along my fate I found it. I found my wish in my dream. Is it my wish? Now I'm not sure.

Elementary student mel had dreamed a little things called love. She loved it since the first time she met "What is your name? My name is Meli" She learned it and always get the best. She liked it very much. She would explore it and share it. Cant she??

When she looked a bright way, suddenly it was getting black and lost. Oh my God. Guide me through my downtime. Guide me through the fairy tale if that's the best for me. Although I never thought I will get it. I accept everything you are given.

Let me know what I want. Let me throw my wish. Let me make my dream come true. Oh no no no!!!

Let me get the best. Let everyone in my side get their best!^^

Just Thanks

Fabiayyi ala irobbikuma tukaddiban
No regret, no reject, no denny
just thanks
for everything You have been given

I won't celebrate this unclear day
It's not my new year
It's not in line with my belief
It's not my special day

Regardless everyone else

It  just my down time
When I loose one of the best things in my life
the deepest one

when I let it is broken
 impossible to turn back
and  hurt

New Year Eve Effect

Why

It's my down time when I just speak in english. it is not showing you  that I love english than indonesia. I just try to keep my mind thinking logically and fresh. because when I am not speaking in english, I cant help my self and my feel. I just try to drive my self well by speaking and writing in english. English is unique language in my world. Just my world. Because here, I can control my mind to think well when I want to do something, I have to considerate vocabulary, put it in  grammar and arrange it in noun clause, it helps me to drive my mind well.  Because no one can help them sellf when they are not in a good condition. I tell you this way doesn't mean that I will show you my weakness, I just wanna show you that I am still good enough. Don't worry with my circumstance. 

Never ask why! 

My Star

Let's open a teen magazine
If you are a common teenager
You'll open zodiac page --> Ms Irene said....
There are 12 recognized zodiac
Aries, Taurus, Gemini, Cancer, Leo, Virgo
Libra, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Capricorn Aquarius, and Pisces
All of SEFfer has their own star excepted SEF Star
But...
Although we are different
We are not divorced each other
We form the nice formation
As if star constellations
Decorate the space..
Be one step forward, SEF
and Always keep Fighting!!!
kak Dendi n kak Adhityo
And Also Kurniawan
Although we are not Breaking today
But, we will get brighter star in the next chance!!!
Keep Fighting and Winning for mr Yunas

*Bawor cup effect
Mr Donny Lontaan I'm sorry, It's not like a poem hehehe

Unclear Note


I love you I love You
I wonder how can I feel it? As I know, I just let it flow. Let it take me where it wants to go.but, it steals my heart. and get me to down!!
hm...
When I want to carve my day with him. he has gone. the pieces of my heart  are missing him. But, as if nothing really matter. I try to read. I go to learn. I'm laughing with my friends. And I start to cry when I spilled my own feel. Just One know. Just One notice. Just One in my heart. forever. Forever and always. oh my God. Allah subhanahuwata'ala. You're  the best thing, that ever been know.

Forget for a while

Now, I know....
I'm not his princess. This ain't a fairy tale. I'm gonna find some one someday. Who actually threat me well. is it? or better than him. who is him. he is the best for me.

How God love me........

Alhamdulillah. he has forgot me. is it for a while? or may be forever?

oh... up to him. and up to Allah's destiny..

Better, fate make us so far for a while. Than we must together, but we make the large mistake.

and me? how about me? I just let it flow.keep my heart. and try to always be the best along with everything happen. I'll accept my own self as thought God creates the special one like me.
I admit my rabb. My best of the best in this world.

Who very very love me. Love him. Love you. Love all of Allah's creature

^_^

My Poem

My Heart Star

Let's open a teen magazine
If you are a common teenager
You'll open zodiac page --> Ms Irene said....
There are 12 recognized zodiac
Aries, Taurus, Gemini, Cancer, Leo, Virgo
Libra, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Capricorn Aquarius, and Pisces
All of SEFfer has their own star excepted SEF Star
But...
Although we are different
We are not divorced each other
We form the nice formation
As if star constellations
Decorate the space..
Be one step forward, SEF
and Always keep Fighting!!!
kak Dendi n kak Adhityo
And Also Kurniawan
Although we are not Breaking today
But, we will get brighter star in the next chance!!!
Keep Fighting and Winning for mr Yunas

*Bawor cup effect
Mr Donny Lontaan I'm sorry, It's not like a poem hehehe

VICTORY LOVE PREPARATION (Mr Gildon before Bawor Cup 2013)


“Congratulation for you who pass selection of bawor. We will begin internal training tomorrow at 7 P.M” Eh??? Suddenly I surprised. I don’t have any preparation at all..
It’s too sudden. I’ve never join training seriously before. I just try to come and learn. It’s my first time. But I try to answer “I’m sorry, I think your message go to the wrong one”
“No. you are available”…….
And some moments after,  I go to Wisata Niaga to join accreditation. And the result is not good enough. Ok!!! Kurniawan have said that the most terrible things when you are adjudicator  is being trainee. And this most terrible come. I am trainee here. From the first until the last round….
But don’t worry. I am still young enough. I am not as old as david at niger. Hehehe…. JSDC!!!!! I’ll sit there at a chair adjudicator!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Aaamiiin…….. J
And here I suggest you not reading the article below
I saw his smile at his lips and his hope at his eyes to enter his room after breaking announcement. But, I suddenly change my mind because I suddenly aware I can’t see his verbal in this round.  I decided to follow Mr. Tian and go to my institution room, EDS UI. Here I saw  very precious debate. I don’t know what Andi Says. He is too complicated. So, I just laugh in my heart. Hahaha…
May be it is the most hipster article in this blog. I tried to express my feel by write. But I can do nothing. I like him very much, and he likes me so much. But we never meet in the same room although we stay in the same competition.
But, I always like him like he like me. Until what time? Until I aware that I am bored and he is boring. It is his last day in my town, wanna say good bye but I cant. Wanna say see you but I shy. So, I just keep my silent. Kriiiiiik Kriiiik…..

Ya Allah… Keep my istiqomah L L L L L

22 June 2013

JMUN 2013

It closes to my last second semester at biology faculty.
 on june 16th 2013....
I come
then 20th I will go home
As if something lost in my mind..

Kini tak ada terdengar kabar dari dirimu
Kini kau telah menghilang jauh dari diriku
Semua tinggal cerita antara kau dan aku
Namun satu yang perlu engkau tahu
Api cintaku padamu tak pernah padam

hahhaahaha eventually, I find this song lyric 
I don't know what will happen in the next time
as I know it's not the end of my fight
well!! today I'm just reach a superlative award
next year you are outstanding delegate
and I am the best delegate.. hhahaha

I don't wanna say good bye
just like a thousand sakura drop into my heart
when I say "See you"

You are not only the best delegate in Jakarta MUN this year
But also, the best one in my mind

*plakplakplakplakplkplakplak